On Being Supermom

I’ve been working full time outside the home for just over a month now.  The kids have adjusted very well to having to eat breakfast at school instead of home, and to going to a strange house after school for a couple hours.   As they get older there is more homework to do, guitar lessons had to be moved to the evening.  Then there are the adult’s activities to fit in.  I honestly don’t know how people who have kids in several activities do it.  I feel like I barely keep up now. 

Priorities have had to change, of course.  My house really is no better no worse…it doesn’t get messed up while we’re gone, but there are just some nights I get home from work and the only thing I want to do is sit and vegetate and clutter piles up.   Laundry has become strictly a weekend activity.  Dinners are usually simple.   My gym workouts have decreased in time and frequency.  It’s not the getting up at 4ish am I mind (oh who am I kidding, who LIKES to get up then?), but by the time I get there, get my gear on, and workout, I can get about an hour in before I have to go shower & get ready for work.  Gone are the 2-3 hours spent there.  Then to pile on top of that the goodies that people bring to the office, and having to eat quick lunches, I don’t eat the healthiest.  And the scale is showing it :(

Sometimes I question myself, can I do this? How can I be better organized? Inevitably I forget something in my daily scheme—key for work, snack for the kids at school, my lunch.  One of my biggest worries about going back to work was being able to handle everything in daily life.   Between learning the new job duties and adjusting to this new life, anxiety does get the best of me sometimes.  I guess all in all I’ve handled this last month better than I thought I would.  This time of year is usually hard for me anyway with less sunlight and outdoors due to weather.  For someone who’s dealt with depression and mental health issues, this meant increasing my Prozac dose.  I really hope that helps me keep myself put together as life continues to move along. 

I know it’s a myth that a woman can be “supermom” and have it all, something has to give. But it doesn’t stop life from happening and I need to be able to keep on trying. For my family, for my health. 

Lori's Resolutions

I know how most of us don't keep our New Years Resolutions, but I'm the exception and I'm no different.   However, part of the battle is REMEMBERING what you resolved to do in, say, 3 or 6 months from now.  Several of mine are the same every year, and match a majority of societies I think. But, for future recollection, and somewhat for accountability, here are my five 2010 Resolutions.

1. Loose 15 pounds - even if I loose 10 I'll be happy.
   
2. Pay down debt - over the years we've built up enough debt on only one income, time to start tearing those balances down. 
   
3. Declutter - I've never had a Better Homes & Garden home, and I probably never will but I know there are ways I can simplify.  Less is more. 
4. Grow spaghetti squash in our garden - Gotta support my new addiction :) 
5. Decorate my desk with Spongebob - I'll be the nerdy girl at work lol.

Young Lady

My baby is growing up.  Over the last year she's been getting her hair cut shorter and shorter.  No more long wavy locks.  But I have to say, I think this haircut is the cutest on her!   I know the pic isn't the best, thats my cell phone camera for ya. 

global WARMING?

 

 

Dear Al Gore, 

Could you share some of Your Global Warming with us the northern USA? We sure could use a warm up from the sub-zero temperatures. 

Love, 

North Dakota

Happy New Year!

The busy holiday season is finally behind us.  The kids were spoiled once again this year, by family and by Santa.  Jimmy got a Nintendo DSi. (I wish I had a quarter for every time he said DSi that day, I coulda made a lot of money!)  Gina got a Just-Like-Me American Girl Doll, which she named Natalie Grace. After Christmas they went to spend the week at Gramma Karen's. 

Tomorrow it's back to reality.  Back to early mornings, back to structure and schedule, back to LIFE. This holiday season sure did fly by fast.  And I expect the future won't slow down any either. 

My job is going well and being a new month I'll be learning some more new duties of the position that go with payroll.  Daryl is still working for the auto body shop with no return to the railroad in sight yet.  And being the beginning of the year, I suppose it's time to write out my resolutions.  I know the odds of accomplishing them are usually small, but nevertheless its a nice way to take stock of where you are and where you'd like to be someday.  But that's another entry, that I'll get to hopefully sooner rather than later.