Future Plans

This morning Jimmy starts talking about growing up.  He tells me we won't need the picture of him and Gina I have sitting on the bookshelf anymore.  He then proceeds to tell me that when he's old and has a mom (sic, aka wife lol) that he'll have his own kids.  "What if the boy comes first, mom?"  Then he decides the boy will be born on August 20th.  Then number two will be a girl and she'll be born on June 28th.   Wouldn't it be interesting years and years down the road from now to see how close or far he is? lol

7 & 10 year checkups

Took the kids to the doctor today for their annual well checkups.  Gina is 54% in weight and 100% height, and Jimmy is 95% in weight and 99% height.  Both kids got the H1N1 mist (I've never been a big fan of flu shots hence the wait so long to get this one).  I also requested an ADHD eval be done on Jimmy.  The problems in school with not listening and making noise and moving all the time continue.  He may or may not be ADHD, it could be something else, but this is the first step in finding out.  All I know is I don't want him to be labeled a bad kid when it's something medical that he can't help. And also so that we can get some professional opinions/help on what we can do to help him function better. 

On Being Supermom

I’ve been working full time outside the home for just over a month now.  The kids have adjusted very well to having to eat breakfast at school instead of home, and to going to a strange house after school for a couple hours.   As they get older there is more homework to do, guitar lessons had to be moved to the evening.  Then there are the adult’s activities to fit in.  I honestly don’t know how people who have kids in several activities do it.  I feel like I barely keep up now. 

Priorities have had to change, of course.  My house really is no better no worse…it doesn’t get messed up while we’re gone, but there are just some nights I get home from work and the only thing I want to do is sit and vegetate and clutter piles up.   Laundry has become strictly a weekend activity.  Dinners are usually simple.   My gym workouts have decreased in time and frequency.  It’s not the getting up at 4ish am I mind (oh who am I kidding, who LIKES to get up then?), but by the time I get there, get my gear on, and workout, I can get about an hour in before I have to go shower & get ready for work.  Gone are the 2-3 hours spent there.  Then to pile on top of that the goodies that people bring to the office, and having to eat quick lunches, I don’t eat the healthiest.  And the scale is showing it :(

Sometimes I question myself, can I do this? How can I be better organized? Inevitably I forget something in my daily scheme—key for work, snack for the kids at school, my lunch.  One of my biggest worries about going back to work was being able to handle everything in daily life.   Between learning the new job duties and adjusting to this new life, anxiety does get the best of me sometimes.  I guess all in all I’ve handled this last month better than I thought I would.  This time of year is usually hard for me anyway with less sunlight and outdoors due to weather.  For someone who’s dealt with depression and mental health issues, this meant increasing my Prozac dose.  I really hope that helps me keep myself put together as life continues to move along. 

I know it’s a myth that a woman can be “supermom” and have it all, something has to give. But it doesn’t stop life from happening and I need to be able to keep on trying. For my family, for my health. 

Lori's Resolutions

I know how most of us don't keep our New Years Resolutions, but I'm the exception and I'm no different.   However, part of the battle is REMEMBERING what you resolved to do in, say, 3 or 6 months from now.  Several of mine are the same every year, and match a majority of societies I think. But, for future recollection, and somewhat for accountability, here are my five 2010 Resolutions.

1. Loose 15 pounds - even if I loose 10 I'll be happy.
   
2. Pay down debt - over the years we've built up enough debt on only one income, time to start tearing those balances down. 
   
3. Declutter - I've never had a Better Homes & Garden home, and I probably never will but I know there are ways I can simplify.  Less is more. 
4. Grow spaghetti squash in our garden - Gotta support my new addiction :) 
5. Decorate my desk with Spongebob - I'll be the nerdy girl at work lol.

Young Lady

My baby is growing up.  Over the last year she's been getting her hair cut shorter and shorter.  No more long wavy locks.  But I have to say, I think this haircut is the cutest on her!   I know the pic isn't the best, thats my cell phone camera for ya.